Before I was born....

There was a woman who was married with three kids. Her husband was off in the airforce fighting in Vietnam. She found herself pregnant, scared, with a husband who could easily lose his temper. She went through this pregnancy knowing that in the end she would say goodbye to that baby. That baby was me. (Side note here, babies that are given up dont have a voice. They can't choose anything, babies are born helpless. If I had been given a voice I would have chosen to stay with my mama. I would have taken the good and the bad.) I was born one night very late and the next morning my mother literally ran away from the hospital and left me. alone. So begins my life the way I know it. This action of my mother giving me up has affected me in every day life. Made healthy relationships difficult. I have imbedded in me this deep fear of being left. I hang on to relationships with talons that push into others so much that it hurts them. It leaves us all scarred in the end.

Journey

I want this blog to be available to other mom's, wives, women that have lost their way. I am on a journey to understand why I do the things I do. I have made many choices both good and bad. Many hard knocks happened in my life, we will discuss some of those, but I want to say NO to compromise. I do not believe I have to be stuck here like this. I want to grow healthy. Many people have asked me to write a book or tell about my life but I am going to do this this way. I hope some of you will join me and even take time to share your stories. We all can learn from each other can't we?

C